Some
Rainy
Days
I
Like
To
Look
Up
At
The
Clouds
Through
My
Skylight
And
I
Watch
The
Droplets
Fall
Like
Words
In
A
Poem
Sorta
Like
This
One
And
I
Think
Of
How
You
Used
To
Hold
My
Hand
And
Kiss
My
Softly
On
The
Tip
Of
My
Nose.
Some
Rainy
Days
I
Like
To
Look
Up
At
The
Clouds
Through
My
Skylight
And
I
Watch
The
Droplets
Fall
Like
Words
In
A
Poem
Sorta
Like
This
One
And
I
Think
Of
How
You
Used
To
Hold
My
Hand
And
Kiss
My
Softly
On
The
Tip
Of
My
Nose.
it’s 5:56 in the morning
Hope in a bottle
Spilling out loudly
The sound crashes in our ears
No regrets, never regrets.
Shouting from rooftops, from birds’ backs, from the skies
Liberty is a thing that can be purchased
With determination and strength
We have things inside of us we never even knew we had to begin with.
Lean on back and close your eyes
The smells wander on in: fresh cut grass and gasoline;
Balloon animals and your dog peeing on the fence
Hey, it’s alright now. Hey.
That beautiful moment where you’re at a loss of words
Because you don’t have a thesaurus with you
That could give you another option, another choice for the word that means
Something like freedom.S
CIGARETTE IN HAND YOU TOLD ME YOU WOULD SWIM ACROSS OCEANS FOR ME
Where is my home now?
Broken hearts more painful than the shifting bones they belong to
Where is my home now?
Unspoken words burning my inner ears like a radio set to static
I have learned to no longer ask any questions that
I would really rather not know the answer to.
Your fingers on my collar bone, your fingers in my hair
Exhale.
“I just can’t love a person like you.”
Inhale? Inhale, inhale, inhale!
You beg to yourself,
But all of the oxygen has left the twin-size bed.
And all you have left to breath in is
The truth.
Here today, gone tomorrow they always told me
I always thought you’d be the one to prove them wrong
Your smile was bright but your heart was even brighter
Or so I thought.
Or so I thought.
At night, when I’m still awake, 50 shades of the-light-is-off-so-why-can’t-I-sleep
It’s been three months, give or take a few days
And the words you said still haunt my dreams.
Inhale.
Inhale.
Inhale.
“I just can’t love a person like you.”
But then, one of these nights, an epiphany occurred
In the darkness of the night
I just can’t love you, either.
pace back and forth in the kitchen,
and when he comes home
tell him that you are unhappy.
he will look hurt but not surprised.
start to walk away as he says
something like “Things can get better”
or “I can change”. and for this you will hate him.
say that you will take a walk
and before he can catch up to you, add ‘alone’
when you get back, find him
at the kitchen table
with a glass of wine. sit across from him
and tell him that you are pregnant.
before a year, there are medical complications
there wont ever be anything conclusive only a rash of tests
the thought occurs to you
that you are waiting for something to die.
have a child together and then bury it.
tell him again that you’re unhappy,
and hate him more for silently
putting a hand on your cold shoulder
there wont ever be anything conclusive only a rash of tests
start to find excuses not to be with him.
sit alone at cafes and hope he is having an affair
but when a man offers to buy you coffee,
let him. have the affair for your husband
wake up early to think about what would
make you happy and brew
a warm cup of coffee, but not for him.
don’t say anything when your husband starts
to play piano or learns your favorite song.
don’t look at him when he glances at you for approval.
let his fingers trip over the keys
and let the notes be heavy and dry,
hope they are painful for him to play
even though you know he will keep practicing.
there wont ever be anything conclusive only a rash of tests
the sky cries for you, my dear. when you’re sad, so are the clouds.